Taking responsibility

Image accessed from 1 December 2020.
Getting help from others has been really helpful for me, but I canāt expect others to fix all of my issues for me. Sometimes I think I have had that expectation, but there are some things I just have to pull through for myself.
One of the biggest things I have to sort out for myself is getting on top of my own life. No one else can do that for me, thatās something that falls to me.
What does it mean to be āon topā of life? I guess I see it as having a healthy balance between all the obligations and optional things that take up my time. Career, social life, health, volunteering, hobbies.
I need to manage my own time and what Iām doing. Itās not up to others to tell me what to do, I need to make my own decisions about these things. I need to balance thinking about things and getting feedback, with the need to actually get stuff done. I need to carve out time for myself to plan out what is going on in my life and to be clear about what Iām doing each day, week and month. Then I need to follow through and do it.
I need to take responsibility for my own emotions. When Iām feeling a lack of motivation or confidence, thatās something for me to deal with. If things get really desperate, maybe I can seek out a motivational speaker or a life coach? Even then, there needs to be a drive in myself to actually do the things I want to do.
Iāve been in a fairly constant state of fighting to improve myself over the course of my blogs. I think I actually have been getting somewhere with my goals. Iām fitter, I feel like Iām a better thinker, I feel like I manage my time better. Thereās been a lot of knock-backs, but Iāve worked through them. Iām in a position where Iām able to take more responsibility for myself and continue the fight to be better than I was yesterday.